New Year Feelings

It's Friday, January 2nd, 2026.......and I'm in the office. I am the only one in the office! 

Everyone else is taking PTO. My boss, Kelly, asked me the last day we were in the office together on December 23rd, "What time are you coming in on January 2nd? It's a work day." 

I said, "I haven't thought that far ahead." 

So, here it is. I am here. 

Besides that, it's 2026. I have had strange feelings the last couple of days. 

I am working with my former intern supervisor from WAKC TV 23, Linda White. I've known her for 35 years. 

I graduated with my Ph.D. ten years ago. A decade ago! 

Monday, January 5th marks the 17th year that my Dad passed away! 

It's one thing that anniversaries are like 4 years ago or 6 years ago but....when it gets to be 10 years and longer.....shit, the 35 years ago like Linda White, it puts a perspective on time passing by real quick. 

I feel like I am aging really fast. I figure I have about 25 years left of living. 

I spent the last 9.5 years at Hiram, being miserable for the most part, while going through the most successful part of my career. I achieved a lot. 

This aging feeling is why I am getting to be intolerant of bullshit. There are a lot of things within our control that can impact our happiness. My wife and I started a diet on an app called Simple. She wants to lose weight. I am technically overweight at my height. My goal weight is 175 pounds. I am making my way there quickly, mostly by giving up sugar and pop like Mountain Dew. 

I hope to change some things in 2026. ;) I'll post more later....hopefully good news! 

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